PASSIONATE PURSUIT

This is sort of my theme for this week; passionate pursuit. I’ve gotten a lot of flack this week from my mom and my best friends, Joe and Mich about my list. You know what I’m talking about, the list.

Well, I have a list of what I’m looking for in…a man. It’s very long and very detailed and I am admitting my madness on the inter-webs…and I said inter-webs, I’m guessing my cool card has been revoked. I’m sorry, I’m a girl! A girl who’s been through a lot and just doesn’t want anymore drama in her life, hence, the list.
So, my friends and my mom are all, “You’re insane, you’re way too picky, this will never work, it’s never gonna happen!” As for me, I figure, hey, it’s my life and I have the right to make any sort of list I want. Look, I know, realistically I’m not going to get the guy on the list and in a way it’s not really about the list, it’s about hope and it’s about a gift.

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I want the gift, to be passionately pursued not in a gross way like a stalker, not in a sinful way like an obsession, but as a gift. I want to passionately pursue, I want the gift. The gift of loving and being loved; being desired and desiring, that’s all. Maybe the easiest way for me to express that and channel that is through a list.

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Mich told me, as long as you have someone, anyone, nothing else matters; on the other hand, I think that it would also be incredibly sad to be lonely when you’re with someone than to be lonely alone. Your spouse should be your standard, by which you measure anybody else of the same sex. It may not start out like that, but given time, understanding, love that’s where it should end up. What’s wrong with wanting a head start on that? ;-) I mean, don’t you want to wake up every day knowing that the person you’re with wasn’t just some random person you settled with just because they were there? Doesn’t it feel about a million times better know that what you have is a gift, a miracle, a blessing? Call me a dreamer but I think that would be awesome.

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I think it’s this whole salvation thing…I got a taste of love, a taste of pursuit constantly getting dazzled by God. He drives me crazy sometimes and I’m yet to fully understand Him, but He makes my heart melt and my soul fly and I don’t know how to give that up. More than that, I don’t know if I’d want someone who drained me of that instead of keeping me full.

Everybody deserves to be passionately pursued – list or no list.

xo

Jo

Taking Care of a Sick Wife

O.K, so technically, I'm not a wife yet, I'm just engaged, but forget about that. This weekend I caught a pretty bad cold, luckily, Cappy was around to take care of me...it took a bit of training but he got the hang of it.

Friday:
I started feeling a sniffle coming on, and a fever too, all this while I was at work...so I called Cappy and he picked me up after work and took me home, which saved me from having to walk all the way to the bus stop and getting on a bus. He did my dishes, made me warm apple cider vinegar and honey which is my "chicken soup" because I take it whenever I'm sick and set up my favorite DVD's for me to watch in bed, and basically left me all set up before he left.

Saturday:
Early morning he was already back, did my dishes from the previous night. Lectured me on not eating dinner that he left...he's got to understand though, that when I'm sick, I can't eat! Brought a few movies for us to watch, brought a million oranges, for a vitamin C kick. I was a bore to be around, honestly...I couldn't talk because of my sore throat and I was moody, but he was a good sport and stuck around.

Sunday:
Woke up feeling so much worse, so I sent Cappy on a Pharmacy run. I thought I'd tough it out and not take any drugs but by this morning I was screaming for painkillers...that meant we both missed going to Church, but there was no way I'd have been able to make it. I feel so much better, right now I'm just in bed writing and relaxing.

Best part of the past three days, a couple of hours ago we were watching Modern Family and something really funny happened, and I laughed, and he said, he missed hearing me laugh, how cute is that...then he said I sound like a teenage boy cracking his voice...that's how it goes, taking the good with the bad.



XO.... T.M

Money and the Silent Treatment

The Captain and I haven't seen each other for days now. We had a bit of an argument over money on Thursday. Saving up has just been hard for both of us and things reached boiling point when I'd used up my budget allowance by Wednesday so I couldn't afford to do anything. I tried using my ATM card to like get more money, but then he's on the mobile-banking system where any transaction gets text messaged to your phone and he found out. It was just a big mess. I know I was wrong, but I just needed to get away for awhile. So I went back home to my mom's and switched off my phone all weekend, don't worry, I told him and explained what was going on with me and that I just needed a couple of days.

I actually got to thinking, and I realized, most of the time our arguments are because of me. I mean I blame him, and not just him but other people who I don't get along with, but when I look at how these people get along with the rest of the word, they're great. So when everyone around you knows the sky is blue and you go around insisting that it's pink, you've got to realize they're not the crazy ones...you are. I am definitely crazy. I'm not saying I'm always wrong, and he's always right, but I do tend to judge people by a higher standard than I judge myself and it's not cool. I really want to try and change that.

Anyway today I met with my beloved, I told him my realization. He tried to console me, telling me that I'm not that bad, lol, but I did ask him for help and he agreed. We also went looking for an engagement ring. So interesting, the price ranges I mean...there's the 6000, the 12000, the 80000 shilling. There's engraved or not engraved, there's the matching set or single, there's silver, and platinum, yellow gold, white gold, diamonds, fake diamonds. I mean...it's endless.

Obviously, every girl dreams of the platinum and diamond ring, and I most certainly did, but as I grew older I started thinking yellow gold is more common in Kenya and maybe more practical. Also, there are so many fake silver rings selling everywhere, I don't want people to doubt my ring. I really really like the thought of not going traditional with the yellow gold and doing something different.

Anyway, I found a couple of designs that I liked, and we decided to do a matching set, because it's relatively cheaper and I don't see the point in buying an engagement ring that I'm not going to wear for the rest of my life. Now some of these may be over the top and we probably won't have the money to buy them, but a girl can dream can't she? :-)

I'm going to upload those pictures as soon as I can.

Have a great day my lovies.


XO.... T.M

Engagement and Satisfaction

It's just hit me that as much as The Captain is to me, a sweet and romantic guy, and I always feel like I landed the jackpot when it comes to him, yesterday I realized just how much of a guy he is when it comes to wedding planning. At some point we were even tempted to throw the towel in and just go to the A.G's office and get married, like you know, elope.

It's just that sometimes you get so caught up in the numbers and finding the right people and the right deals. We're also just starting out, and frankly, we can't afford, and I cant imagine putting down a million shillings for a wedding. Then there's so much pressure like from my family, I'm the last born kid and everybody expects my wedding to be the best. Friends are also an element of pressure, because each wedding tries to outdo the one before. Pressure also comes from the two of us. We want to get married, we want to be together, and that's crazy. I mean, we both agree we're tired of saying goodbye every day, and we want to live together. Ah, it just gets too much to bear at times.

Then yesterday I realized how important it is to be open and honest. Like we sat down (over the phone) and talked about it. It's also made me realize, how like Raha said people are never satisfied. I have this amazing guy, I'm planning a wedding and still I'm complaining!


XO.... T.M

21 Simple Rules.....for a Happy Household

1. You have both been raised to life with Christ, so set your hearts on the things that are in heaven, where Christ sits on his throne at the right side of God. 
2. Keep your minds fixed on things there, not on things here on earth, for you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God, your real life is Christ and when he appears, then you too will appear with him and share his glory! 
3. You must put to death, then, the earthly desires at work in you, such as sexual immorality indecency, lust, evil passions, and greed (for greed is a form of idolatry). Because of such things God's anger will come upon those who do not obey him. At one time you yourselves used to live according to such desires, when your life was dominated by them, but now you must get rid of all these things: 
4. Keep watch above your anger, empty passions, and hateful feelings. No insults or obscene talk must ever come from your lips. 
5. Do not lie to one another, for you have put off the old self with its habits, and have put on the new self. This is the new being which God, its Creator, is constantly renewing in his own image, in order to bring you to a full knowledge of himself. 
6. Treat everyone equally, there is no longer any distinction between Gentiles and Jews, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarians, savages, slaves, and free, but Christ is all, Christ is in all. 
7. You are the people of God; he loved you and chose you for his own. So then, you must clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. 
8. Be tolerant with one another and forgive one another whenever any of you has a complaint against someone the other. You must forgive one another just as the Lord has forgiven you. 
9. And to all these qualities add love, which binds YOU together in perfect unity. 
10. Let the peace that Christ gives guide you in the decisions you make; for it is to this peace that God has called you together in the one body. 
11. Be thankful. 
12. Christ's message in all its richness must live in your hearts. Teach and instruct one another with all wisdom. 
13. Sing psalms, hymns, and sacred songs; sing to God with thanksgiving in your hearts. 
14. Everything you do or say, should be done in the name of the Lord Jesus, as you give thanks through him to God the Father. 
15. Wives, submit yourselves to your husbands, for that is what you should do as Christians. 
16. Husbands, love your wives and do not be harsh with them. 
17. As children, it is your Christian duty to obey your parents always, for that is what pleases God. 
18. Parents, (both you and the in-laws) do not irritate your children, (do not also let the parents of one irritate the other), or they will become discouraged.  
19. As employees, obey your human employers in all things, not only when they are watching you because you want to gain their approval; but do it with a sincere heart because of your reverence for the Lord. 
20. Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as though you were working for the Lord and not for people. Remember that the Lord will give you as a reward what he has kept for his people. For Christ is the real Master you serve. 
21. And all wrongdoers will be repaid for the wrong things they do, because God judges everyone by the same standard.