fear

One thought has been on my mind for the past two days. I can deal with a lot, but I don’t know how I can deal with losing a loved one to a terrorist or a murderer. Knowing that my loved one was killed as a part of someone else’s cause that we had nothing to do with. Knowing that my loved one is gone while the person who killed them is walking the streets.

I’ve dealt with death before, but I just can’t deal with that sort of pain, or rather anger. What emotion do you even choose for that? Do I grieve; do I give in to the anger?

I just heard on the news that a grenade went off at O.T.C. buss terminus. I pass by there every day. People I know walk there. One person dead, more than 10 rushed to hospital. I am happy and grateful that I haven’t heard any bad news. But there are hundreds of people who by the end of this night will have.

People going about their days, trying to rush home. And these heinous acts of terror that none of us want to be a part of got in the way.

I can’t deal. Tonight I’m teary eyed and scared.

thoughts

As I’ve grown up, mostly over the past year or so, all I’ve wanted or searched for is contentment. You know those moments when you’re full and healthy and you almost want to take a picture of that moment and frame it so you always remember how it felt.

I was talking to my sister a couple of days ago and she told me how when she met her husband, she didn’t want to deal with any of the drama that came with her past relationships and she didn’t feel the need to try so hard.

I’ve always wanted to have that. A relationship where you don’t have to constantly police your partner. Worried about where they are, what they’re doing, who they’re with. It’s a hell of a scary thing trusting someone with your heart. Personally, my biggest fear is being blind-sided, you know what I mean, being happy and in love and then suddenly the other person hates you, and leaves you for no apparent reason.

That’s what I’m trying to do, or to be like from now on. Trust that whoever I’m going out with knows as much as I do how lucky we are to have found each other, and appreciates not only that fact, but also appreciates me.

Ideally. I think I have a lot of love in my heart and I’d want to give all that away…there’s always part of you that doesn’t want to give 100% because it’s too much to get hurt when you’ve given it you’re all.

It’s crazy. The world is insane and I wish love didn’t have to be complicated as well.

Another Day, Another Shilling...Nairobi, Kenya

So, I'm doing my first link-up for Kelly's blog...hope you like it :-)

So, I woke up today to the coldest morning ever and luckily for me I don't have class on Monday...a perpetual 3 day weekend. I don't know exactly what to write, so I'll just give you some quick facts about Nairobi.

• We have a brand new KFC which opened a couple of months ago...I say this first because someone was supposed to take me to KFC this weekend, and someone didn't HINT! :-)

Source: google.ca via Tammy on Pinterest

• We used to have the coolest form of transportation, called matatus, like a totally pimped out, 14-seater van with the works...big screen T.V, top of the line stereo system, screens in the windows, amazing artwork....but they were scrapped and now, you'd rather just use the bus...

• We have a pretty shot political system, but that's a whole other story...
• We have mostly gorgeous weather...
• The economic downturn is finally catching up to us, but that's a whole other story...
• They're are really pretty women here...
• It's pretty safe and calm, pretty much an ordinary city, contrary to what you see in movies...
• Obama's grandmother lives here
• Common language is English mixed in with Kiswahili

• I was born here
• People are mostly friendly, sometimes a little too friendly...
• It's really fun to live here...

• It's a great place to raise your kids...

Source: tamimiea.com via Emily on Pinterest

• There are like 3 Churches in each one-block radius

• It's probably the only city in the world with a National Park 10 minutes from the Central Business District, that's our skyline in the background

Source: greenskychaser.com via Anne on Pinterest

Source: travelingcolors.tumblr.com via Shelby on Pinterest

• We have amazing jewellery....and a mostly great fashion sense

Source: news.bbc.co.uk via Christine Shaw on Pinterest

• We make great beer, had to mention that because this was my job for three months...

Source: google.com via Blake on Pinterest

Hope you liked it...


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Raha

Accent Vlog

OK, so, I've seen this floating around the web and I thought it might be fun to do. Born and raised in Nairobi, there's not really an accent you can call a "Kenyan accent" It pretty much depends on what community you were born in, and where you live. Even in Nairobi, it depends on where yo u live, where you went to school and stuff. 


I have never done this before and I was kinda nervous, so ignore the rocking back and forth :-) also the color on my Dell Webcam is pretty bad.


The instructions are to say these words:

Aunt, Route, Wash, Oil, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, Sure, Data, Ruin, Crayon, Toilet, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Spitting image, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Syrup, Pajamas, Caught

And answer these questions:

What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house?
What is the bug that when you touch it, it curls into a ball?
What is the bubbly carbonated drink called?
What do you call gym shoes?
What do you say to address a group of people?
What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
What do you call your grandparents?
What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
What do you call it when rain falls while the sun is shining?
What is the thing you use to change the TV channel?
Your turn.







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Raha

Pinterest

"Life is too short not to pin!"

Wait, before you jump down my throat, I was as much of a pinterest critic as you are. I thought it was over-hyped and the whole apply and wait to be accepted thing was to me a bit pretentious. But once I got in...(yayy!) (when you "get in" to anything it always feels like such an accomplisment, lol) anyway, once I got in and got the hang of it, I was promptly addicted.

Source: lemontreecreations.blogspot.com via Colourful on Pinterest

You can pin anything, anything from anywhere on the internet. I have boards for everything (a board is a collection of related pins) I have boards of how I want to decorate my house, my future kids rooms, i have a board for recipes to try and quotes and cartoons. I probably shouldn't say this but I think Pinterest has made me a more interesting friend, I always have some quote or some idea to share with my friends.

Not to mention how easy Pinterest makes it for bloggers to embed pictures in posts!!!

All I can say is, Long Live Pinterest!

xx

Raha

It's Today!

via Pinterest

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Raha